Sumtimes i tink i wud be a better person if i had say more sorys den fack u....more please then get off....more thank you den u shud hav done dis earlier...yeah...this little things i have took for granted...yet i get pissed off when ppl show me lil gratitude for tings i hav...guess most of us jz expect more from others n so lil from ourselves...i tok crap alot but i seldom jz say sumting lyk dis- u really mean alot to me to my family n frens...unfamiliar word from me to type olso...well but i noe if i start givin ppl hugs n say whu u r makes a big difference to me dey will tink i got an overdosed of oprah or chicken soup for soul...nah actually is jz dat i tink dere shud be like show of appreciation to everybody whu makes u whu u are..i m more of a closed type of person i dun really share my feelings...i dun really show my feelings...i seldom like cry or shout or disagree aloud...i m jz me on d outside...i tink i feel safer dat way...d only ppl whu really see me throw tantrums, cry or show anger are my family...but still dats veli seldom...normally when i m angry i jz throw my pillows around and make my bedroom a much *better place*...my sister is more creative...she paints grafiti in her bedroom to show her anger..i m worried if i do dat...ppl will tink wad happened in d bedroom...did a 4 year old kid got trapped n he strted to draw in crayons all round d wall... i never understood art...i cant draw a simple animal properly even without guidance from a book...i drew a pig today n fong ang said it looked like a dog...oh well...so whenever theres drawing stuff i draw sumting show it to my sista...she always looks at it n drops her mouth....cant stand it n help me redraw...dats y i always show it to her...kekeke...i remember when i was in smkusj13 i failed my art n my pals wanted to help me get a few more marks to scrap a pass..but the teacher pointed at the feet n say...do u tink this is a leg?...embarrasing...hahaha....i tink i am done crapping now...got tonnes of akaun work to do but i end up writing here...but letters are better than numbers...numbers are confusing....

its just me.2:33 AM

Having so many test papers given out in one day makes me think...why are we learning those crappy subjects for...its not interesting...why cant we just like learn important stuff like how to avoid accidents and what to do if given certain situation...then theres creative writing...learn how to write interesting stories rather then being drown by esei questions...and mayb learn how to make a movie...or create songs...if theres this kinda school i sure will be there..Education system has made me feel stupid...i dunno bout u guys but i m not really interested to find out how food go's in ur stomache n cum out....i m more interested to make the food tasty rather than pukeyish..ohya that adds to my new education system...learn how to cook well...not d one year one time in KH...but part of the school subjects...like learn how to cook tasty lamb chop n chicken chop...n then bbq....yummm...(ok mayb we can learn dis at home but then if at school we bcum pro d we can exchange recipes n bcum a better cook) and why must the world be so complicated...we shud focus on things like eating, sleeping and having fun mar....now our system is ----> get born, study hard, get good results, get good jobs, earn money den use the money to buy stuff for luxurious means...in another words so can hav fun......that system cuts down our fun by 70%....we shud hav dis system-----> born, hav fun hav fun hav fun... ohh n dun ask how to get money...we dun even need money to start of with...everybody in the world shud share actually...we shud build a wajib sharing system...u got more rice u share...i got more fish i share...sounds like the system barter...but still...its better than humans head getting bigger wif useless junks information wif time n greater technology....ok i noe i m just bull shitting but still it is a very good bull shit...i guess i better stop writing now den bull shit more...so many tings to zha...but my hand is pain liao...i type dam slow...

its just me.12:52 AM

Since i m too lazy to read book...feel like is after test d although the fact is still got many killer papers...0.0..so might as well do some review on two movies i jz watch recently...as a latihan to do besok english literature

Mission Impossible 3
Not bad show after all...though i never watch MI2 and MI1 before..d newspaper say dis is the best installment yet...must be gua...though a bit confusing the show...starting the time zj told me that it was abit of the previous show MI2 but then later on we watched d we oni realise it is actually showing abit of this current show's ending..make more sense cuz i was wondering how the gal die then sudenly alive again..i like dis shows director..J J Abrahms( i tink)..i love all his tv series-alias n lost altho oni hav time to watch half half of those shows episodes nia but still it is veli interesting...this MI3 kinda unpredictable...sum ppl u tink die d actually not yet die...u tink is bad guy turn out to be good guy n vice versa...so alot of suspense...it is not like those stupid show u sit at the cinema 3 minutes d den u noe whu is gonna kill whu...waste money type of show..one ting tho d movie din show much on other characters...jz like flip thru them...mostly all about tom cruise nia..so din get to show much of their talents those other actors n actresses...but the show got real emotional at the behind part lo...ethan cried...but we din cry lah...the penontons..n the show is quite long...but not the oh god please end the show kinda long...is those interesting and satisfying those kinda happy endings...after the hero dodges thousands of bullets n dozens of bombs like they always do...den is back to home sweet home n we r happy family again...so cheers...

She's The Man
My sis managed to convince dad to buy this vcd...her frens said d show is kinda funny...so once we managed to bought the vcd ...we immediately went to watch the show..ok the beginning was not bad...about this gal(Viola) whu wants to enter her schools boys soccer team( bcuz the gal team got cut due to lack of member)..however the couch+ the boys team laughed at her and said that thers no way gals can play better than guys( typical gal discrimination)..so her brother was about to transfer to this new school but his band was also tied to a concert trip to london...So Viola den disguised herself brother n enter his school to try out at the soccer team to prove that she cud play jz as well as any other guys(typical)...n tada she manages to do so...though kinda funny the show but still...its kinda freaky that Viola manages to really transform into a boy worse still into those weirdo geeky type...veli veli scary...though on the plus side there are alot of good looking guys and gals in the movie...too bad this vcd is real cacat...dam blur and halfway to the show we see a shadow walking down the cinema...dam stupid...this is wad the vcd cover reads...- everybody has a secret.... Duke wants Olivia who likes Sebastian who is really Viola whose brother is dating Monique so she hates OLivia who's with Duke to make Sebastian jealous who is really Viola who's crushing on Duke who thinks she's a guy-...see finish d @.@ rite...lucky i watched the show b4 i look at the vcd cover(cuz din realise)... the long n veli confusing sentense jz sums up wad the show is about...funny and delightfull show...though not veli good...it is quite entertaining...especially wif those cool and hot dudes and gals in the show...watch n eat kuaci at the same time or can get abit boring...

its just me.2:54 AM

so much for sayin all that want to buy present n bla bla...so on sunday we went ta one utama...the first thing there then i remembered i forgoten to bring money...my sis gave me the u so useless look( jz dis morning she reminded me to bring lui)...so had ta pinjam frm dad first...me n my sis like lost cow dunno wad to buy...flowers my sis say wana buy but i never see wats the use is flower...buy d then layu...so useless...n evybody buyin so must special abit mar..n mum was looking at us so we feel dam pai sei oso...dunno why...so we sambil jalan then sambil go wif mum...sudenly mum saw this shirt she like...so we wana buy...mana tau den my mum say not nice d...at first happy then back to searching presents...then we went ta a necklace shop...asked mum wat she want...she said she want the necklace...a big necklace those orang asli type but in d nice way lar...mana tau wana buy the time my mum noticed got dis crack ther...zha dou oni me n my sis...so end up the fella gotta call the other place ppl to reserve the orang asli necklace so next time we came...the present gao dim...though have to postpone the mothers day gift...so dat was one happy postpone mothers day...n jz realised the berrys when got all these days type they dun sell one slice cakes...they sell sum weirdo strawberry cake tingy..veli ugly decorations...

its just me.11:36 PM

Tomolo is mothers day n i m still dry on ideas...normally we never celebrate this special day...our family doesnt believe in all these days..fathers day, mothers day...heck my father say soon ther would be cousins day n uncles day...birthdays are the only buisness we celebrate normally in dis family...seeing how comercialised all these days days has bcum...but still tomolo i feel like i wana do sumting special...mayb cuz i m too free or mayb cuz its kinda like separa after test...went ta sunway pyramid yesterday...wanted to grab a chocalate box for mah mum...but it was very expensive...i wudnt mind spending rm20++ to 35++ but rm20 for 4 pieces of chocalate...@.@... i tink i wud end up asking my mum put it for decoration..so i thought i wud rather buy a much practical present...plan ta go out taday...but still din manage to buy anything nice...so my mood kinda jz flatten...untill jz at 4pm...hw asked me for ideas to write a poem for her mum...wow...dat sounds like a pretty good idea...so i tink mayb i wud rite a poem...hehehe...best give i tink...n a small present mayb...later gona grab one..i will post my poem n how it all went on mother day tomolo...hehe...

its just me.3:36 AM

well since no time to post anything and my page is getting a lil boring


Love, a delicate rose
Cared and nurtured
By the wistful gardener
With sunlit days and watered grounds
Attention it gets from passerbys
Admired and looked upon
By overshadowed weeds and trees
Who once had such a glory
As they witness slowly
How it withers and dies
To the dismay of admirers
They wept and mourn for it’s lose
Not realizing what lost was just beauty
As it roots and substance stays
Feeding the leaves of trees
Nurturing the sons of weeds
As you see…
Love never dies
It lives from our father’s father
Reaching beyond our ancestor’s grip
The color of life it winds…
The hard grounds it fed
With the sorrow tears of rain
And thus the tale of lives unfold
Signifying the power of love
And the many forms it appears….
How it blind us fools of love...

its just me.10:11 PM

-EV- ---> my world in words

its just me.11:17 PM

this is my first ever post in my life...well never had been a true fan of blogging...never had the time and i was never one to be open about my life...but still wad harm cud it be for me to start one...so wad the heck...i might as well try...today at skewl was jz as normal as cud be...starting the day quite fairly well except the fact that whenever i get out from the car to walk into schul...my specs gets all misty n i look extremely weird plus i cant see anything...extremely frustrating and it happens every morning...argh...hate it alot...always make me start my day with an angry note...then went ta canteen after a short while saw fong ang walkin in with the book on top of her head forever there...wondering wats wrong with her head...then she took of the book...saw that she had changed her hairstyle...was pretty cool...like those 70's rock band type where people jz rock their head n jz shake their hair like its meant to be ripped off the head...though she seemed pretty depressed...expecially when i say it looks like jagung...( the shape)...she wasnt pretty thrilled to hear dat...judging by how she wanted to whack me with that thick fizik book...went in the class...wanted to do my accounts homework...got one big load ther...but ended up sleeping in class cuz was dam bored...wondered where was zheng joo though...thought she ponteng n jz yesterday she asked me to cum to schul...yet she wasnt there the next day...then she suddently appeared at 8 30am...smiling there only..apparently she slept too much n woke up too late...kinda rajin of her to wake up at 7 30 and still cum to schul...if i'm the one whu woke up late...i would continue sleeping rather than cum to schul...then talk in class till i went down for early recess....was very happy to see the uncle there making the ramli burger...means the ramli burger is hot...after awhile wasnt that thrilled d...cuz dam slow the making ramli burger progress...n i only have ten minutes...there were rows of ramli burgers there...made me all the more hungry...waited for a long 10 minutes till i finnaly got my burger...very slow service..ended up i came late to koperasi...got abit of warning...haiz...thanks to the uncle whu took 10 minutes to make 3 burgers...after recess things just got back to normal mode again...talking at class kena scolding by teacher...n den wait slowly for the time to pass by n end....like dead fish d...finnaly only the bell rang...went back home wif a veli veli happy heart...managed to whack both hsiao yinn n hui wen...n ran back to mum's car...well at least theres abit of exercise towards d end in schul...a day just like everyday...-ev-

its just me.2:39 AM