Who said dinosaurs wun appear...? lolz..now im gonna prove it...For being mia for few MONTHS ..i can explain-1st ..its not dat im too lazy to update my blog(mayb just a lil) but theres many other factors..like how i wud get stuck evytime i wana write sumting..and the fact that i m so cacat technology that i dun noe how to really put up a post with a photo..so my blog is like dam boring..dun tink anybody wants to read craps only..craps wif pictures is so much better..sumore i can blame sam programme for slaving us plus the fact that i need my 8 hours of slp evyday..jz realised i have been slping for only 6-7 hours dis few days..no wonder im hungry faster, often space out, abit moody and very zombie-ish...horrifying rite? the difference of few hours of slp..the morale of the story is..slp more or die fast..

I have planned to close this blog down for a number of times..but i nvr did..cuz i noe sumday i wud need it in case i wud feel like writing again..like how im feeling now..Sumhow dis few days..i really miss alot of things in da past..its like past-sick..as in homesick..this is the past-sick syndrome..da things i miss is the past being the past..u noe wad they say..like old things wud remain forever..its not true..

" I've seen enough now

to know that beautiful things

don't always stay that way

I've done enough now

to know this beautiful place

isn't everything they say"

Old things change till i dunno whether to wind my watch or scratch my nose anymore..thats why i wan to keep past as past and future as future alrdy..i don't wan my past to change anymore..its all getting really tough on me..its like listening to this very nice song..in its most original form..n den dis dj wud change it into a senseless remix..just to it fit it wif time..and den from loving the song..u hate it..its exactly like dis..i duwan to eat dinner alone anymore..when in the past we ate together..i duwan to go bek into grandpa hse jz to see dat the old table is gone, or the new tv is sitting right on the lil corner that we once played 'lets cook the teddy bear' in and then set on to joke around wif the others like i have been ther forever when the fact is i was gone for a long time..they know it and i know it..but we both " dont realize it"...i duwan to learn that chromosomes are also chromatids..also sister chromatids..then bek to daughter chromosomes again..i prefer it being chromosomes..it was easier to study then..just chromosomes..why cant evyting be just chromosomes? hell, why cant it be just DNA..and then stop right ther..o.o.the fact is..i wana start over again..put all my past in a box..lock it..mentally jolt it down..nvr forget it..and turn over a new ev..Hi my name is ev..I m the future..the past ev is being locked in a box...im prepared to strt it all over again..haha!..easier dis way...i duwan to think of how-it wasnt like dis b4..or all this negative thoughts..ppl and things change..it just does..i changed to..cant expect time to wait for you to slowly change in your accord..im ready to accept the fact that sumtimes u gotta listen to those yucky remixes because the dj has changed it into that form and the fact that chromosomes have so many names...and i have to remember all of it..so thats it..i updated my blog..im off to study my maths! chaoz....

its just me.1:17 AM