Sumtimes i tink i wud be a better person if i had say more sorys den fack u....more please then get off....more thank you den u shud hav done dis earlier...yeah...this little things i have took for granted...yet i get pissed off when ppl show me lil gratitude for tings i hav...guess most of us jz expect more from others n so lil from ourselves...i tok crap alot but i seldom jz say sumting lyk dis- u really mean alot to me to my family n frens...unfamiliar word from me to type olso...well but i noe if i start givin ppl hugs n say whu u r makes a big difference to me dey will tink i got an overdosed of oprah or chicken soup for soul...nah actually is jz dat i tink dere shud be like show of appreciation to everybody whu makes u whu u are..i m more of a closed type of person i dun really share my feelings...i dun really show my feelings...i seldom like cry or shout or disagree aloud...i m jz me on d outside...i tink i feel safer dat way...d only ppl whu really see me throw tantrums, cry or show anger are my family...but still dats veli seldom...normally when i m angry i jz throw my pillows around and make my bedroom a much *better place*...my sister is more creative...she paints grafiti in her bedroom to show her anger..i m worried if i do dat...ppl will tink wad happened in d bedroom...did a 4 year old kid got trapped n he strted to draw in crayons all round d wall... i never understood art...i cant draw a simple animal properly even without guidance from a book...i drew a pig today n fong ang said it looked like a dog...oh well...so whenever theres drawing stuff i draw sumting show it to my sista...she always looks at it n drops her mouth....cant stand it n help me redraw...dats y i always show it to her...kekeke...i remember when i was in smkusj13 i failed my art n my pals wanted to help me get a few more marks to scrap a pass..but the teacher pointed at the feet n say...do u tink this is a leg?...embarrasing...hahaha....i tink i am done crapping now...got tonnes of akaun work to do but i end up writing here...but letters are better than numbers...numbers are confusing....

its just me.2:33 AM